Where I gather my thoughts and transform my sea of emotions into written words, so that I may let them rest somewhere other than in my heart or head.
Despite the desire, I find myself not in a place where I’m able to create and write…. but I AM in a place of cleaning up in my writing world. I’ve spent some time recently organizing my documents, photos and folders. I’ve even seen some memories pop up on Facebook of some writing that was never shared on my blog, so I’ve taken the time to add it there as well. I...
This morning, as I took my shower, moments of my past flooded my thoughts. They unfolded in my mind as if they were happening all over again. Moments when I didn’t feel like I was enough. Moments that hold immense guilt for me. Moments that have played a role in shaping who I am today. I don’t know what brought this on. I didn’t plan it. I didn’t knowingly conjure it. I...
As the last minutes of 2019 slip away, I’m left with a feeling of accomplishment. I’ve learned a lot this year – about myself and others. I’ve started new things. Put myself out there. I’ve loved myself and stood up for myself in ways I never have before. I’ve placed boundaries. I’ve gained confidence. I’ve grown. I’ve spent the past year...
Seeing the changes in what I want now compared to what I thought was the ultimate goal a few years ago is shocking. I’m still struggling with fully accepting that the picture I had in my head of how I wanted my life to look isn’t the only right way. We’ve been taught to aim for certain things in life. We’ve been taught to strive and work towards a certain lifestyle. Allowing myself to want...
Birthdays, anniversaries and holidays are big reminders of those who are no longer with us. Some may have passed away. Others may have chosen to leave our lives… and others we might have decided to walk away from. I’m the type of person who doesn’t accidentally forget a birthday. Every year, without fail, I send the card, make the call and send a text. Today, I chose a different...
It’s almost been one year since your diagnosis. So much has happened this past year. I could talk about all the procedures, doctor appointments, surgeries and treatments. I could talk about all of the devastation, pain and exhaustion. But I won’t. I’ll remember how you rose up, faced reality and stood in your power. I’ll remember how you stood tall and beat the odds...
