Where I gather my thoughts and transform my sea of emotions into written words, so that I may let them rest somewhere other than in my heart or head.
Memories. Boxes of memories. Gathered items collected over the span of her life. Pieces of her life carefully placed in boxes and moved from house to house, as she moved from town to town. Pieces believed to symbolize moments of her life. Pieces believed to be made up of pieces of her. Pieces believed to define her, as she is today. Irreplaceable pieces. Year after year, more and more pieces were...
Today. 1 PM. My mind was filled with lists of what needed to be done and what needed to be bought. We were all sitting together at the table. We were eating a quick lunch at home before heading back to the office for Kevin’s business call at 2. The phone rang, interrupting my thoughts. I checked. It was my mom. I always answer for her. We talked for a bit as she updated me, but got off the...
January 1, 2019. It’s here. I’m here. It’s a new beginning and a continuation all at the same time. What do I want this year? I’ve been asking myself this for a while now. Contemplating what my word or phrase of 2019 will be. I want more time spent doing things that open up my soul. I want to dive into who I really am and appreciate and love her like I have never before. I...
December 31, 2018. It’s the last day of another year. As I get older, it seems like the years go by faster and faster. Like clockwork, as the year comes to a close, I find myself looking back on all that the year has brought me. The physical things.. the experiences… the inner growth and evolution. Some things that come to mind are the trips we’ve taken. A beautiful vacation to...
On October 30th, I drove 5 hours by myself, leaving my husband and kids at home, to be there for my mom’s surgery the next day. On Halloween, she had a double mastectomy. I still find myself pausing when I say those words. Still trying to comprehend it all, I guess. This trip was the first time I had ever spent a night away from either of my children. Even when I stayed a few days in the...
With an upcoming surgery looming in the near future, I knew we needed to go see my mom this week. With the new knowledge the kids had about my mom’s health, they were beyond grateful to be going up there to see her. We were all very aware of how different this visit was going to be. It had been a while since my mom first called me to tell me the news. I’ve had time to sit with it...
