You called me today. You vented about insurance companies with their heads up their asses. You expressed your concerns about your anemia and the consistent excess fluid under your arm where they removed 25 lymph nodes. You spoke about the pain, the swelling, the tightness. You revealed your worries about possible Lymphedema and possibly not starting radiation on time. I sat there. Helpless. I...
Today, I celebrate me. I celebrate who I was, who I am, and who I will become. I celebrate my thoughts, decisions and accomplishments. My wants, my needs, my goals. I celebrate how far I have come and my will and motivation to keep going. I celebrate my wisdom, perspective and contributions. My intentions and my efforts. I celebrate my peacekeeping tendencies and my yearning to tell it like it is...
I stood there in the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror. I had just finished my makeup and was straightening my hair. Then it hit me like an inescapable wave. Flashbacks. Quick flashes of memories from that September day. September 6, 2018. We had just parked at the office and my phone rang. I instantly knew it was something bad. I told the kids to go ahead and go in with Kevin, so that I...
Memories. Boxes of memories. Gathered items collected over the span of her life. Pieces of her life carefully placed in boxes and moved from house to house, as she moved from town to town. Pieces believed to symbolize moments of her life. Pieces believed to be made up of pieces of her. Pieces believed to define her, as she is today. Irreplaceable pieces. Year after year, more and more pieces were...
Today. 1 PM. My mind was filled with lists of what needed to be done and what needed to be bought. We were all sitting together at the table. We were eating a quick lunch at home before heading back to the office for Kevin’s business call at 2. The phone rang, interrupting my thoughts. I checked. It was my mom. I always answer for her. We talked for a bit as she updated me, but got off the...
January 1, 2019. It’s here. I’m here. It’s a new beginning and a continuation all at the same time. What do I want this year? I’ve been asking myself this for a while now. Contemplating what my word or phrase of 2019 will be. I want more time spent doing things that open up my soul. I want to dive into who I really am and appreciate and love her like I have never before. I...
