It’s almost been one year since your diagnosis. So much has happened this past year. I could talk about all the procedures, doctor appointments, surgeries and treatments. I could talk about all of the devastation, pain and exhaustion. But I won’t. I’ll remember how you rose up, faced reality and stood in your power. I’ll remember how you stood tall and beat the odds...
Today is Monday. It didn’t start out like a normal Monday. It wasn’t rushed. It wasn’t horrible. It wasn’t miserable. Yeah, I felt tired, but I was still rested enough to not wake up feeling like death. I took a quick shower, releasing all negative energy as I cleansed my body. I got Kevin’s coffee and my tea going. Tiger Eye tea.. sweet hints of caramel in the...
You called me today. You vented about insurance companies with their heads up their asses. You expressed your concerns about your anemia and the consistent excess fluid under your arm where they removed 25 lymph nodes. You spoke about the pain, the swelling, the tightness. You revealed your worries about possible Lymphedema and possibly not starting radiation on time. I sat there. Helpless. I...
I stood there in the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror. I had just finished my makeup and was straightening my hair. Then it hit me like an inescapable wave. Flashbacks. Quick flashes of memories from that September day. September 6, 2018. We had just parked at the office and my phone rang. I instantly knew it was something bad. I told the kids to go ahead and go in with Kevin, so that I...
Today. 1 PM. My mind was filled with lists of what needed to be done and what needed to be bought. We were all sitting together at the table. We were eating a quick lunch at home before heading back to the office for Kevin’s business call at 2. The phone rang, interrupting my thoughts. I checked. It was my mom. I always answer for her. We talked for a bit as she updated me, but got off the...
December 31, 2018. It’s the last day of another year. As I get older, it seems like the years go by faster and faster. Like clockwork, as the year comes to a close, I find myself looking back on all that the year has brought me. The physical things.. the experiences… the inner growth and evolution. Some things that come to mind are the trips we’ve taken. A beautiful vacation to...
